My cute little nephew and neice

So I have been asking several people to pray for my mom and step dad because they have inherited 2 grandbabies. A long story short, they are wonderful kiddos...

Calub the cowboy!

Hailey-Poo

And the best picture of all:

I had a very interesting conversation with my mother today about the kiddos. My mother is a wonderful woman who is very tolerant and patient. She has captured such a heart of Jesus during this time and it really shows. She was telling me that she was listening to a sermon in the morning and the sermon was about a pastor's daughter. The pastor's daughter had three children and the last of her kids was born with out any ears. The daughter was so upset about this disability. After a while the daughter called her father back in tears and exclaimed, "He chose me." She had come to the realization that God had chosen her to raise a disable child because He knew she would be able to handle it. God speaks wonders through other people because talking to my mom she has also come to the realization that God has chosen her and my step-father to raise these kids. They are their children now and are wonderful, intelligent, and funny. My mother has really done an outstanding job and I know that they could use all the love, support and prayers from people all around them. It is definitely not easy to let your grown children leave the nest but then all of a sudden gain new kids. Please pray for them. Calub is 19 months old and Haily is 5 and such a bright child.

Realizations

I just had a realization and it is funny how that happens to you after you make a decision and know it is wrong. I am always complaining about not having friends, but I have officially found out that I'm the reason I don't have friends. I remain to myself and I'm content with that because I'm too afraid to let myself be transparent. I remain at home because I'm too afraid that people won't accept me. I see that people try to make an effort for me and I return with avoidance. I really don't know where this stems from. If I have some weird thing that happen to me when I was younger, I'm not really sure. But what I do know is that I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being the reason that I sit on the sidelines all the time.

I make a vow to myself and people that enter my life on a daily basis. My vow is to make an effort. I make a vow to do the things that I say I'm going to do and not back out because I'm scared. The worst thing that could happen to me would be that I don't get along with someone and I know that I can get through that. I definitely need to be that person off the sidelines. I vow to let my yes be yes and my no be no.

A long time coming...

So it has been a crazy, crazy, crazy year so far. I have been so wrapped up in my own little world I have not had time to update this little blog. Let's see where we left off.

The Blowey news: Well we have officially moved into our new house. I have pictures I just can't find my camera because I'm pretty sure that Josh has used it on one of his many infamous hunting trips and has stored it away somewhere. So hopefully we will get those pictures up and about soon. I love my new house, sometimes I wish that we lived in a neighborhood that had more young friendly couples, but nontheless the house is awesome. So much better than an apartment. We have yet tol stock the house with all the furniture that we need and I have no eye what so ever for decorating so I will invite people over once we figure out how to make the house our official home. (I just need to hire Keri to do it all for me)

Now that we have a house I guess the question becomes when do we fill it up with lil' ones, well we will be waiting on that one for a little while longer, but I do feel the baby bug every now and then.

One of the strongest struggles that I have here is figuring out where I belong. I'm so use to being a homebody and not transparent to allowing people in my life. I get so jealous of others who seem to find friends in a place that I've lived for almost 2 years. However, I'm trying to put myself out there. I do have amazing people in my life who I consider my friends, but I struggle to find friends in the same walk of life who I can be my whole self with. But we are praying and looking for that. I love my job and my friends at work. I couldn't ask for a better job. So there is the update for right now look for more in the future.